Welcome!
Hopefully this is the first of many written snapshots of me, Meagan.
Gotta Start Somewhere.
Welcome to… me! My name is Meagan, and I’m 28 years old. I just graduated from the University of Alberta and I’m in that weird in-between time where I have a job but I don’t really (substitute teaching is unpredictable). I’m looking for multiple calibers of jobs (if you know of any schools and/or coffee shops hiring, please let me know!).
I am married to a very tall dutch guy, and I also have a dog and a cat. I live in Edmonton, Alberta which is honestly such a beautiful city… but also we have dreams of travelling (living??) abroad… perhaps just dreams. That’s okay for now.
I’m a person who uses a lot of brackets because I have random intrusive thoughts that simply must be stated. It might get hard to read at times. Bare with me.
1. Why? Because I have a voice.
I often get in my own head and tell myself that what I have to say… my experiences… aren’t important and that nobody would be interested. So perhaps this space is me proving myself wrong in a low-stakes way. This is a risky move in my mind - perhaps someone will read something I say and get offended! Or bored! But also… that’s alright. I’m okay with it. You don’t have to continue reading. But please do.
2. A Safe Space.
I want this to be a space where I can be real. I feel like a lot of people don’t know me. I consider myself to be a pretty open person… but at the same time I don’t always have the opportunity to share what’s on my heart and mind.
3. A Real Space.
I need to acknowledge that I have had immense amounts of privilege in my life. I am a white woman, in Canada, with free healthcare and a relatively healthy life. I have not experienced discrimination to the point of not being able to follow my dreams and ambitions.
This being said, trauma marks a lot of what I do and I have defied the odds to be where I am now. I could have very easily been part of the failure statistic, but I have worked (and fought!!) very hard to be where I am today. I most likely won’t get into details! If you really want to know specifics, I may tell you in person, but a lot of it is not for the world to know. The way that I see and experience the world is, however, tinged by my past experiences, so you may get a taste.
I am also “neurodivergent” (ADHD) but I do not want this to be my title or identity either… it may just come through in my writing style. Or what I write about. I guess this all just means that being “real” may mean that not everything is good and alright at all times. And. That is okay. I don’t want to live in a fake world. I am a generally happy person though, and I also need a space to share my joyful moments!
4. A Space to Find MY People.
I know that if people read my writing and still want to read more, despite flaws and little annoying quirks of mine, they are my people. Know, however, that I will impulsively read and re-read every word I write to ensure it is just the way I want it. This is just the way I operate. Hopefully I grow out of this.
And if nobody reads what I write despite the effort… that is also perfectly okay. Sometimes a public brain dump on a platform that isn’t Facebook or Instagram is needed.
This is Sully… he's very cute but he also stole my dryer ball this morning and makes everything I own completely covered in fur. He’s 2 years old and acts just like a puppy. He has a very sensitive stomach and is a huge whiner. He’s a little butt and I love him a lot.
If I include Sully I should put a spotlight on Oliver too. He’s also very furry and cuddly and knows exactly how to annoy the crap out of you in the most efficient manner. His favourite pastime is finding ways to antagonize the dog. He’s also very cute and I love him dearly. (look at those toe beans!)
And last but not least…
Here is my best friend/husband Mike. My friend edited this picture because his fly was down LOL. Maybe that describes the perfect imperfection that is our life… but I love every second of it. I wouldn’t ask for anyone else to spend it with. PS - This photo was taken by
! She’s pretty great and you should go read what she has to say.Thank you so much for reading! Please let me know your thoughts, or if you have any questions!